I wish I could believe you. I wish I didn’t go through the four years that further opened me to the darkest part of myself. I wish I didn’t become who I became, and who I fight to hide from the light of other’s eyes. I wish I could let you understand what it is… Read More I Wish…I Wasn’t What I Am
Way back when, you meant the world to me. Your smile made me smile; your laughter made my heart flutter; your hugs made me melt; your presence made me feel safe. I loved every minute I could spend by your side; I didn’t want to be anywhere else. I looked forward to your “good morning”… Read More The Goodbye I Never Got to Say
Somewhere between the heartaches and headaches, I found acceptance in my heart for the scars on my body. Somewhere between the silence that used to be side comments on my weight or appearance, I found a way to feel beautiful. Somewhere between running aimlessly and walking with my eyes closed, I found somewhere I actually… Read More Scar VS Me
I cried. I felt my eyes tear up and took a steady breath, trying to calm my nerves, not wanting to cry. But it didn’t help. I looked up at you and listened to you singing and playing your guitar, as you always do so gracefully. It felt like you understood what I was going… Read More Cried. Forever.
No matter how much you want to believe that once you got past a certain stage in the pain, it all just “went away”. But, honestly, we all know that the pain from the years before, the permanent scars that wounded and belittled our hearts, are still living inside us. There will be those days… Read More Into The Past
“All I ask,” she told him, “is for you to be here because you want to, because you want me to be apart of your life, because you can’t imagine life without me, because you love me.” She paused as flashbacks from the endings of her last couple relationships sailed through her mind. Was it… Read More Backboneless Confrontation
From a girl who was taught and forced to hide her emotions and true feelings to a girl who is brave enough to force herself to experience the emotions that course through her veins, I survived. From a girl constantly being lectured about how she was “too much like a boy”, “too quiet”, or “not… Read More Life’s Accomplished Stars
It’s always been one thing to have parents against children on topics such as do’s and do not’s, curfew, television time, etc. but it’s another thing when the silent rule is to remain separate. A father who used to work nearly all hours of the day never saw his children as much as he would… Read More A House Divided
She sits by herself. Darkness engulfs her from all sides. The one and only source of light shines brightly from the corner. The light shines blue. She stares down at her hands. She is trying her best to hold it together. She is trying not to tremble. She is trying her best. But she can’t… Read More Her Best, Remembers
“It’s not going to happen again” is what I keep telling myself but the fear that lingers, the doubts that hide, even the smallest chance of possibility rises from the dark and engulfs all the light. I keep telling myself, “I will never put myself in the position again”, “That will never be me”, and… Read More Life History
I know you have that list of things you swore you would never catch yourself doing. I know you have those things you promised yourself you would never do. But did you ever think that it would be okay? It’s okay to have some fun and flirt. It’s okay to hang out and make memories.… Read More Okay. Okay.
Last year was hell. She thought she had everything. A guy who loved her. A guy who knew her like the back of his hand. A young man who respected her and tried his best to understand her and be there for her. A young man who guided her and encouraged her towards greatness. A… Read More Never Again
A “label” gives information about us, right? It kinda defines us in some way or another, to a certain extent. It kinda tells the world about who we are. Label – (n.) a small piece of paper, fabric, plastic, or similar material attached to an object and giving information about it We are defined by… Read More Labeled. Tagged. Defined.
Looking across the way, I see this girl who kind of looks like you. Her hair is black and long, her eyes are dark but welcoming, and her stance is open and seems confident. But I can see the depth in her eyes that hide many stories and experiences, I can see the timidness in… Read More Reminders Here and There