Some time a couple years ago, I heard him tell me “I love you” for the first time. Some time a couple years ago, I laid in bed in the middle of the night still on the phone with that sparkle of happiness in my eyes. Because a couple years ago, during this time, I… Read More An Old Love Has Its Lessons
No matter how much you want to believe that once you got past a certain stage in the pain, it all just “went away”. But, honestly, we all know that the pain from the years before, the permanent scars that wounded and belittled our hearts, are still living inside us. There will be those days… Read More Into The Past
Late at night, late at night…all I want to do is take a drive down to your house and wait for a while. All I want to do is wait for you to come out dressed in your sleep clothes and get into the car. All I want to do is take a drive down… Read More If You Can Dream It…
From a girl who was taught and forced to hide her emotions and true feelings to a girl who is brave enough to force herself to experience the emotions that course through her veins, I survived. From a girl constantly being lectured about how she was “too much like a boy”, “too quiet”, or “not… Read More Life’s Accomplished Stars
When I got my job, my friend – one of the few who saw me go through everything we put each other through – had warned me about running into you. She was wary of the possibility that I might have to have a forced interaction with you. I thought the possibilities were low since… Read More Doors Closed Can Be Opened Again
One day it won’t matter how long you’ve known me. One day it won’t matter how much you want to be there. One day, I won’t care. After you’ve left me hanging, one too many times? After you let me down, way too much? After you’ve broken both the promises you said, and the silent… Read More I Hope ‘One Day’ Never Comes
A meadow lit by the soft rays of the sun, a field of grass warmed by the sound of laughter as children run along, a save heaven for little fairytales to spread their wings and sore into the hearts of those who love. This is where I remember experiencing that warmth in my heart for… Read More Today, Just Breathe
Every day there is something that could have gone better. Every day there are people I wish to see and conversations I want to have. Every day there is another list of tasks that I need to get through. Every day there is something new to worry about. Every day there are new (and old)… Read More Today. Now.
I know there are a lot of things I worry about that I shouldn’t. I know there is a lot of weight I voluntarily carry that I should probably put down. I know I spread myself thin at times, and that’s my fault. I know this is how I am. But, in all of that,… Read More Always Here
Something recently happened…and I haven’t been able to get it out of my mind. I’ve been talking to this classmate/friend of mine, who I just met this summer in class. (Let’s call him Ace.) I’ve been getting frequent phone calls from him asking for help on the codes we need to write for homework. I’ve… Read More “…genuinely sweet…”
I watch my back. What do you expect? I may have my earphones in but the music is soft enough to the point that I can still hear the footsteps behind me getting closer. I may be in the middle of a time-sensitive project but I will still pause when I hear an abnormal sound… Read More
I remember their words, so clearly. “Your sister is smarter.” “You won’t be successful being who you are.” “You care about people too much. Don’t you know none of them genuinely care about you?” “No boy would want to marry someone like you.” “Don’t cry! Are you pathetic?” “You’re just a piece of trash.” “I… Read More Past Words Carried to the Present
There was something I had once said, probably four years ago: “If you want to leave, I won’t make you stay. If you don’t want to go, I won’t be able to push you away.” I look back and still want to believe it to be true. Let’s be honest, we’ve all been lied to,… Read More Is It True???
I’m going to quote myself from last year. My post titled I See You reads: I don’t care how many times you screwed up in your past. I don’t care how much you messed up. I don’t care what things you regret but can’t take back. I don’t care as long as you’ve learned from… Read More Please. Please. Please.
Starting from the time I open my eyes to the moment I finally let myself rest and sleep after a long day, my heart smiles. It loves the ‘good morning’ texts I receive and deliver to you, knowing maybe, just maybe, it’s making you smile too. I hope it reminds you that someone thinks of… Read More Smile, Love