She stands in the corner with her head down, trying to hide the demons that dance in her eyes. Her body is barely trembling with the fear in her mind taking control of her limbs. Her eyes are closed as she tries her best to calm her breathing and slow down her heart rate before… Read More Elevator from the Past
I watch my back. What do you expect? I may have my earphones in but the music is soft enough to the point that I can still hear the footsteps behind me getting closer. I may be in the middle of a time-sensitive project but I will still pause when I hear an abnormal sound… Read More
I remember their words, so clearly. “Your sister is smarter.” “You won’t be successful being who you are.” “You care about people too much. Don’t you know none of them genuinely care about you?” “No boy would want to marry someone like you.” “Don’t cry! Are you pathetic?” “You’re just a piece of trash.” “I… Read More Past Words Carried to the Present
She sits by herself. Darkness engulfs her from all sides. The one and only source of light shines brightly from the corner. The light shines blue. She stares down at her hands. She is trying her best to hold it together. She is trying not to tremble. She is trying her best. But she can’t… Read More Her Best, Remembers
I wake up, my eyes opening wide taking in the very minimal light that’s in my room. My body wants to bolt up, sudden fear crashing through my mind making my heart race, but I fight it to stay on my back. Closing my eyes, I try to calm myself down knowing it’s just another… Read More Nightmares Disappeared
She sits by herself in an empty house, waiting for something to happen, waiting for someone to come on by and back into her life. She hugs a teddy bear she received as a gift close to her chest, and closes her eyes as she takes one more breath. She hears the music play from… Read More A Story to You
I don’t want to speak today. I don’t want to be misunderstood. I don’t want to be doubted. I don’t want to be questioned. I don’t want to say anything today. You wouldn’t understand anyway, the demons that constantly whisper sins into my ears. You wouldn’t get it, how often I want to scream my… Read More Not Today
“It’s not going to happen again” is what I keep telling myself but the fear that lingers, the doubts that hide, even the smallest chance of possibility rises from the dark and engulfs all the light. I keep telling myself, “I will never put myself in the position again”, “That will never be me”, and… Read More Life History
It stared at me from a far away distance. Even though I knew very well that I had both the time and space to head towards something different, I couldn’t stop looking back. It’s eyes teasing me, taunting me, and poked at my curiosity. It took a step closer and suddenly fear rushed through my… Read More The Creature Stares
I start typing here type here type here But I can’t seem to get the right words to say what I feel inside, to express the thoughts spiraling in my mind. I don’t understand the cloud of thoughts that rumble through my mind and confuse my heart. I don’t comprehend what I’m thinking because it… Read More Untitled.
I hesitated to pick up the phone and dial the number in my head. I didn’t know why. The worst thing that could happen was he’d ask what happened and decline to go. I sighed and picked up the phone. Pressed call. “Hello?” His voice sounded wary. It had been a while since I called… Read More Funeral Date?
Honest. I don’t know what to expect anymore. I thought everything was going to be okay…but how do you say that when all you see are mistakes reappearing and moments you never wanted to remember being relived? That scared, that terrified, that tormented feeling returns back to me each and every time I close my… Read More Relapse (Again)
Danger. Danger. Warning. Danger. I never got that warning. Or…it wasn’t loud enough, it wasn’t bright enough, it wasn’t apparent enough for me to pay attention to it through the smoke. It never blinked red. It never rang screeching loud sirens. It never caught my attention long enough. Danger. Danger. Warning. Danger.
“I’ll see you in two hours. Okay?” I asked with a warm smile. She nodded and laughed, playfully pushing me away with her cold hands, “I’ll be fine without you. I’m not that helpless!” I chuckled and took off my jacket, draping it over her shoulders, “Here. You’re cold. Remember to get some food if… Read More Getting Lost Finding Trouble
From California to the New York islands. From the Redwood Forest, to the Gulf stream waters. This land is made for [not] you and me. I finally got my life figured out. I finally got out of the mindset that I need your approval for every little bit and thing that I do. I finally… Read More This Land is [Not] Your Land, This Land is My Land