Way back when, you meant the world to me. Your smile made me smile; your laughter made my heart flutter; your hugs made me melt; your presence made me feel safe. I loved every minute I could spend by your side; I didn’t want to be anywhere else. I looked forward to your “good morning”… Read More The Goodbye I Never Got to Say
Constantly having earbuds in outside and headphones on inside, music is his attempt to silence the silence. Even the music in his ears get silenced by the silence that pounds in his head. At the same time that he heard an echo in his heart wishing for her to stop him once again and gently… Read More Have Fun
please be okay. please remember to breathe. please stay strong for me. please make it through another day.
I’m sorry…for neglecting your needs. I’m sorry…for thinking you could handle just about anything. I’m sorry…for pushing you past your limits. I’m sorry…for never really letting you have a say. I’m sorry…that you were hurting in the dark. I’m sorry…that I can’t change the past. I’m sorry…that your scars are permanent. I’m sorry…that the memories… Read More Sorry, Now and Forever
I had forgotten how it felt. To have the darkness engulf you as heavily as a burdened heart. To have the darkness soak your mind with the blood of your own heart that spilt years before. To have your mind both feel as weightless as a feather and as heavy as a boulder from the… Read More For Me, Feel Once More
Somewhere between the heartaches and headaches, I found acceptance in my heart for the scars on my body. Somewhere between the silence that used to be side comments on my weight or appearance, I found a way to feel beautiful. Somewhere between running aimlessly and walking with my eyes closed, I found somewhere I actually… Read More Scar VS Me
The dark clouds, the rain, the thunderstorms,
The heartaches, the anxiety, and the blood.… Read More Confession
I cried. I felt my eyes tear up and took a steady breath, trying to calm my nerves, not wanting to cry. But it didn’t help. I looked up at you and listened to you singing and playing your guitar, as you always do so gracefully. It felt like you understood what I was going… Read More Cried. Forever.
Some days, I just want to scream. I stare at my monitor and backtrack to my laptop screen, not a single coherent thought in my mind. I stare at the last text I sent you, a simple “that’s good to hear, and wish you could read my thoughts. I stare at myself in the mirror… Read More
They sat in silence as he fidgeted with his fingers. The music played softly as she got lost in the sights of town she had only seen a thousand times by now. “Isn’t it ironic how I’m meeting your brother?” He asked her quietly a question that followed a unsure chuckle. She couldn’t help but… Read More Once Upon a Nightmare
He said, “Just because you’re used to it, doesn’t mean it’s okay…doesn’t mean it hurts any less.” He said, “They just don’t understand you, but I do. I’m here for you. Ignore them. You don’t need them. You’re strong by yourself.” She said, “I’ve never seen someone in such pain. All I wanted to do… Read More “…sticks and stones may break my bones…” but words hurt either way
“All I ask,” she told him, “is for you to be here because you want to, because you want me to be apart of your life, because you can’t imagine life without me, because you love me.” She paused as flashbacks from the endings of her last couple relationships sailed through her mind. Was it… Read More Backboneless Confrontation
She cries into her pillow each night her heart breaks a little further. She sees her hands tremble even when she tries to focus. She senses herself slipping even when she is laughing and enjoying the sunlight on her skin. She knows herself better than to say she is okay. She tries her best to… Read More Breaking Even More
When I got my job, my friend – one of the few who saw me go through everything we put each other through – had warned me about running into you. She was wary of the possibility that I might have to have a forced interaction with you. I thought the possibilities were low since… Read More Doors Closed Can Be Opened Again