It stared at me from a far away distance. Even though I knew very well that I had both the time and space to head towards something different, I couldn’t stop looking back. It’s eyes teasing me, taunting me, and poked at my curiosity. It took a step closer and suddenly fear rushed through my… Read More The Creature Stares
I start typing here type here type here But I can’t seem to get the right words to say what I feel inside, to express the thoughts spiraling in my mind. I don’t understand the cloud of thoughts that rumble through my mind and confuse my heart. I don’t comprehend what I’m thinking because it… Read More Untitled.
I know you have that list of things you swore you would never catch yourself doing. I know you have those things you promised yourself you would never do. But did you ever think that it would be okay? It’s okay to have some fun and flirt. It’s okay to hang out and make memories.… Read More Okay. Okay.
I hesitated to pick up the phone and dial the number in my head. I didn’t know why. The worst thing that could happen was he’d ask what happened and decline to go. I sighed and picked up the phone. Pressed call. “Hello?” His voice sounded wary. It had been a while since I called… Read More Funeral Date?
Honest. I don’t know what to expect anymore. I thought everything was going to be okay…but how do you say that when all you see are mistakes reappearing and moments you never wanted to remember being relived? That scared, that terrified, that tormented feeling returns back to me each and every time I close my… Read More Relapse (Again)
Danger. Danger. Warning. Danger. I never got that warning. Or…it wasn’t loud enough, it wasn’t bright enough, it wasn’t apparent enough for me to pay attention to it through the smoke. It never blinked red. It never rang screeching loud sirens. It never caught my attention long enough. Danger. Danger. Warning. Danger.
I don’t mean to hide my life from you…I just don’t want it to drag you down from the wonderful life you seem to be living and trying to uphold. I don’t mean to make you think I do not trust you by not letting you know what is physically wrong – because I know… Read More Revision (This)